Sometimes it is when we have forgiven them that we are able to reflect on our own mistakes. 
A thing to ponder
Learn from
Salam and hi,
In the next 2 weeks, I’m going to the British primary school for the last time. We have been going there for the last few months, alternating with the other Group. So we visit the school 2 times a month on Tuesdays. My experience with the kids are priceless. These are some I won’t ever forget:
1. Situation: On my second visit to the Year 2 class, [determined that I should remember almost all of their names after the first meeting, which I did! ] I casually greeted a student:
Me: Hi Jack, what are you reading?
Jack: I’m reading..(I can’t remember what he’s reading). How do you know my name?
Me: *Give a desperate laugh* $%^&*%^&$
2. Situation: Usually we will help the teacher to do reading with the students. And usually we will assist those who are weak first. Last Tuesday, there was this kid named Thomas who were cute quite weak in reading (reading, not comprehension). He obviously reluctant to do his reading with me (I am after all, still a stranger). He spelled the words using phonics (instead of alphabet) which is how they teach reading in the UK. After finishing few pages with a struggle, he SUDDENLY started to just wanted to see pictures instead of reading.
Me: Tom, keep reading (I held down the page with my pen so he can’t turn the page, because he just wanted to see the pictures and refused reading).
Tom: (Forcefully pull the book from me)
Me: (I rose the book, out of his grab) Tom, that’s alright! (what I was referring to here was the fact that it was okay if he struggled to read, I don’t mind, I wasn’t judging him).
Tom: (Suddenly behave nicely and cooperate better after that).
I was ambivalent at that time. ‘Have I just coax a kid (which I’m suck at)?’ and happy and relief and satisfied.
HOWEVER, our reading session ended with us playing tug of war with the book. Because I wanted him to stop reading and him wanted to see the picture of the final page. IT WAS REALLY A FUNNY SCENE THAT THE TEACHER ASSISTANT WHO TURNED TO US AND SHOUTED ‘Tom! stop reading’ WAS ACTUALLY SMILING WITH A HINT OF LAUGHING =.=’
3. Situation: I was sitting on the carpet with the kids because I was asking Talia some questions. There was this kid named Sam who ALWAYS, since from our second visit until last Tuesday, always give me a naughty smile. ALWAYS. But he never talked to me, he just smiled like there was something so funny about me. Even if I talked to him, he will just smiled and give me rubbish answer. $%^&*
Me: (Talking to Talia)
Sam: (Look at me, his mouth formed a cheeky smile) ‘Why is she sitting with us?’
Me: Can’t I?
Talia: (turned to him and harshly said) She’s asking me some questions!
Me: (I really wanna laugh but I can’t).
4. On my second visit, I walked around the class and smile to a student and greeted him ‘You’re Oscar, right?’ and he said ‘Yea’ with a hint of a smile and admiration that I remembered his name.
5. Last Tuesday (Okay I’ve forgotten how many times have I visited the school :p) the teacher taught the students how to subtract using number line. The thing with me is that, I have fallen out of relationship with MATHEMATICS since I was in Standard 2. Sadly we never really make up. SO the teacher said the students were having problem with number line the day before and asked us to help. I SUDDENLY, AUTOMATICALLY went blank and black. GHHHAAAA. ‘I’m so gonna effing die!’ *_* But it turned out alright but not without me having to confirm few things with my partner. However, I can’t help but noticed kids sometimes wanted us to do the thinking for them [in order to seek attention or they are not confidence with themselve]. Okay I admit, I fell for the trick. I helped them a lot. Kira and Geogia burned me out with constant questions. After lesson ended, I asked few friends how to deal with these kids and their suggestion was to sternly said ‘I cannot do the thinking for you, you must think for yourself.’
Above all. FINLEY is the cutest kid ever, ever, ever, in the entire world. I’ve fallen for him since the first visit. Gonna do anything to have a handsome kid like him. Too bad looks are superficial. but still he’s cute.
Above all 2: The teachers are super nice, super positive, I can’t find fault with her. Absolutely amazing. Genuine interest in kids. You name it, she got it.
I learned from the kids, a lot.
Kadang-kadang aku tertanya, rinduku ini untuk siapa?2012- got to decide!
Salam n hi,
Well, I still cannot make up my mind but it’s drawing nearer!. I’m not coming up with resolution and even goal. Let’s be more specific and talk about action.
So For 2012, I’m going to TAKE ONE PHOTO everyday, more if I can manage. I must also WRITE the background of the photo; where it is taken, when it is taken, why it is taken. Therefore I need my reflection book all the time with me.
Another mission is to ALWAYS BE in 30 Days challenge for the rest of the year. For this mission to be realised, I must only have one 30 Days challenge. I cannot have two or more 30Days Challenge running at the same time.
Some 30 Days challenge I can think of write now;
1. ‘I must take a bath before 9am every morning’ (ideally I’ll have this on holiday!)’
2. I must have my prayer in 30 minutes after the prayer times. (in the case I cannot pray, I’ll devout 5-8 minutes on the prayer mat).
3. I must read at least 1 page of al-Quran in 30 Days. In times of period, I’ll take some time to sit down and read the meaning).
4. I must write at least 1 reflection in my reflection book.
5. I must practise guitar for 30 minutes for 30Days.
6. I must take note of my strongest emotion of the day for 30 Days.
7. I must at least construct 1 German sentence everyday for 30 Days.
In case I don’t know what to do, I can always refer back to this list.
Wish me luck! 
2012 Mission?
Salam and hi,
10 Days left before I finish my first ever 30 Days Challenge (I tried to start another one in the middle of my first challenge, I failed on the third day. Hahaa..probably I should focus!)
2012 would be my first and my last full year in the UK. I decide on doing something each and everyday to remember this year. I have something in mind; like taking 1 picture everyday. But I’m not sure what picture should I take. Or should I come up with 1 word everyday. Hmm. I really want next year to last..:(
Life has been interesting so far..sometimes I wonder why it is so hard for me to be grateful to Allah when my life has been really great. Trust me. The only one aspect of life that I’m not really lucky at is my love life. But considering all the great things that happen (I’m like at the peak of my life!), it seems like that shortcoming is nothing.
I’ve been invited for Olympic Game Makers (yea, fancy name for volunteering but it does sound nice and great ) interview. Which I think I might not be going considering my incompetency in..everything? Ha-ha. I don’t specialise in any field, but I would be a good floor cleaner, housekeeper I think. I don’t mind doing the job. I like it. But the fact that this is an international event is overwhelming.
I don’t remember where I left my CD, but i think I supposed to be at D now.
So D for Deep.
Thanks.
