A long time..such a long time.

Salam n good day,

I haven’t updated my blog for a long time…n as far as my living memory can remember, I haven’t updated it for a month (in that case, my living memory is rather short,isn’t it? :p)haha.

I have just finished blog-hopping after stalking on someone.ngahaha~and I like a blog that I had happened to hop into. Rather matured n professional.

I try to relate his blog with mine, and he with me..

When I go through my blog, I read a lot kind of things. Sometime good ones, sometime bad ones, sometime the sinful stuff  that I HAVE NEVER EVER believed I can consciously write. Like some stupid n immature stuff, n cruel words that come out effortlessly from my mouth (with a keyboard in transition). And all the immature thoughts. All the ‘great ideas’ and moral values that never come into practise. Not to mention the grammar errors that a TESL student like me should not be caught red-haded writing them. And I feel like..deleting them. ALL.

But somehow, when I think back…I might not be as good as that person, as that blogger. My blog is not professional, full of sinful, immature thinking. But that’s one of the recollection that I should keep (considering my short living memory) as a proof that I, the person who is writing this right now used to be that playful child, that mean girl, that idealist who never become a practitioner, the hypocrite. I used to be like other person. I am normal. I am not perfect. I used to be a student with imperfect grammar and syntax.

I choose not to be ashamed of what I have done.[yea2, at reading this point u might say that I SHOULD feel ashamed of what I have done] but still, I think that that was and is me, and let the those days posts remain as it is even though one day I might feel embarrass by what I have written but enuff said, even if I deleted it, it will not change the fact that I used to be THAT mean,childish,immature girl.

Therefore, I choose to have only 1 blog. This blog. There is no need for me to write professional stuff on 1 blog, n trivial stuff on another blog. Enuff of having 1 blog. Blend them all, and you get the whole picture of me. The ’serious’ side, the ‘mean’ side, the ‘childish’ side. There is no need for me to divide ‘myself’ into several blogs.

This blog will remain as my only blog no matter wht happens. InsyaAllah.

Good day people!

Salam.

Amik risiko!!

Salam,

Arie ni aku tak rase nk jadi skema la..hoho. Rase nk jiwang2+reflect2..ngee~

Xder per pon sebenarnye..cuma kadang2 bila renung2kan idup ni, aku rase idup ni sumernyer about gambling your own future..nuthin is sure, for REAL.-_-

Kite take risk dalam sumer menda…study, love, kerja..sumer menda laa!!

Kalo dalam study, mcm kdaan skang ni, disebabkan swine flu, ade je students yg kna tangguh study…mcm2 la an..banyak je menda bley blaku dalam jangka masa yg kiter rase -mungkin- singkat..tapi..well, it happens.

Kalo dalm love plak..yg bercinta bagai nk rak tu..hoho, mnaruh harapan yg tinggi utk bersama sume -acecece-,haha, cuba korang fikirkan kemungkinan2 yg akan blaku..yg mati idup tu xyah kire la an, per kata pkir menda yg lagi teruk..wahaha..contohnyer bley ark bygkan korangnyer partner tu last2 skali end up dgn kwn baek korang sniri..haha..mmg ar scara teorinye akn ade yg bkata ’saya akn tumpang gembira utk kwn sy’.hahaha,utk org2 cani, aku doakan korang bahagia ar.hahaha.

Tu ceritanya org yg xfikir ttg risiko..org cani bagus gak ar an,slagi menda tu xjadi,dier x pikir. bila dah jadi baru nk pikir..bagus2…((bagus ar sbb aku pon mcm tu,ngahaha))

Tapi paper pon, ade 1 persamaan antara sumer org:

Kita slalu pilih jalan yg kurang berisiko.kan?

Kadang2, kita tak sedar pon yg risiko tu pon buley jadi a good thing when it can open the door that you have never ever dared to touch..kan?

Tapi itu la hakikat..kiter akn pilih jln yg kurang berisiko..dgn harapan kalo kiter jatuh, kiter xder la mati an,stakat patah tengkuk je.haha.padahal, paper pon pilihan kiter, possibility tu same je..anything cn happen..nuthin is impossible.

Kalo pakar motivasi, suker bagi nasihat ‘take the risk’ an?aku pon suke ckp cmtu,sbb aku pon xkesah sgt psl risiko neh..tapi aku rase an,org yg slalu trima nasihat ni mesti bengang an?ahha~bukan mudah nk amik risiko. org nasihat bley la,sbb bukan dier yg kna hadapi akibat..kan?

Anyway, we seek love in a relationship, without knowing tht we r on for a bumpy ride. You might lose him one day, thats the risk. You might hate him one day, thts the risk. Anyway,still, you take it. We fail, we cry, we hope..face it, thts the risk. And thts the key to a better inner-self, with a better partner and a better taste of life.

In short, just take the risk lah!!you dont know where it will take u anyway, yea, u might fail, but what if you succeed? =p

Solitude versus Solidarity; A Dilemma

Salam n good day..

I just pop into my blog to make a quick update when I am really down..n yea..now, I am.

Well, if you have not been given a choice, and you have been victimized by the TWO ‘witches’, Solitude and Solidarity, what will you do?

If the Solitude gives you more pleasure, would you choose that, even thou Solidarity will make others feel happy except for you?

If you choose them, you are going to live in misery..and why is that?becoz you have to face them, their unwanted faces, their rejection [not to mention OUR  rejection] and therefore you feel hopeless..

But if you leave them, some of them would not be happy..and the ones that you don’t want to feel unhappy are your Significant Others..

So..how?

When your strength lies in individuality, when your uniqueness lies in the orginality..its always best to choose Solitude over Solidarity..ryte?

Yea, people always said Solidarity is Unity, but for you to say that, you need the black side which is called the Solitude..so why can’t I choose Solitude and be strong, and be  proud of that?

When you are not in the team, you are open, you are free to say anything, you may support or condemn without feeling worry of the ones who form ‘S-O-L-I-D-A-R-I-T-Y’ behind you…YOU are YOU..

And YOU ‘ARE’ YOU…considering tht…tht means even ‘YOU’ can be ‘STRONG’ because you ‘ARE’..ryte?

When lives get harder on both of us..When lives teach both of us so much that we feel like choking and drowning in the  sea of tears..we must have the courage to face it, to pierce the heart of the love ones, to break the trust and to be able to face the consequences…WE MUST.

After all…the choice lies in our hands. HE, who makes us feel unwanted, we hate you too. And we are more willing to walk away, bcoz we know, our strength lies in out solitude, our strength lies in our originality. We are we. You may survive on your own, so are we.

So long…and be gone.

Salam.